Monday, May 23, 2011

Parents.......

Parents
Authority
Reason
Essence
Notarity
Turbulence
Senseless

As a parent we don't get much peace and quite! We are the authority and reasoning folks in our house. At times its good at times not so good!
A essence of love shadows all of what I do and what they do...I know it does.
We all love differently and some with notarity as well. We can each not the few times it truely matters to love another. Continued love for another goes up and down, moods change and sometimes turbulant days exsist. One to another we get through it wi the help of our siblings and friends. Other women help us as well. There are days that our lives make little sense and we get little done! Or at least what we thought we should get done.
Senseless acts of kindness and freindships are what makes our lives interesting. We live life day to day at our house and things come and go and that is LIFE as a PARENT!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Compassion!

Compassion
Optimism
Meaning
Potential
Awareness
Seriousness
Seclusion
Innocence
Occurances
Nonsense

Being compassionate about something means to grasp it and run with it. You believe in it, nuture it and hold the Optimism that it will grow.
Meaning is understanding it's lifes potential! We see how babies with in us grow and outside of us grow some more.
Awareness is something that comes with time and understanding there are times of seriousness when there is a diagnosis at hand.
The diagnosis of Autism often puts you into seclusion within yourself. The child that has been diagnosed you look at them so innocent. Autism has taken them away. No words to tell you there needs or wants, how do we communicate now!
Rare occurances of mumble or sigh from your child and finally a friend says do sign language that will help. Nonscense I say how will that help him and me , I don't know. Learn it, learn it! Ok, I say. We did 30 signs later we could communicate. She was right and very compassionate about her job and my need to communicate with my son! What an amazing women!
She gave me hope & compassion to just be able to be with my son.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

HOPE

Hope
Obstacles
Peace
Excitement

Well, all we have is hope these days of Autism and the end of the school year. Obstacles and transitions are tough for my boys. I feel that we are in a place where those are not as bad and not as hard.

It just seems that having a moment of Peace in our house is a whole nother
story! Yes, peace and quite is not what we have these days. A pre-teen and a teen-ager are tough to deal with, cause smart language and a quick wite sucks some days.

I wonder why they get so excited when I say no you can't do that or yes you can have that when i'm done with my lunch. Nothing is ever soon enough in there eyes. Ughh, cook and clean a little and off to draw or fix a train or a book that needs a bit of attention.

Oh, dear where did I leave off with dinner or lunch. I feel lost in my own world sometimes. Geez guess Autism takes over my world and makes me crazy some days and ya know it seems to me that my only peace is when everyone is busy or asleep. Now going to bed early excites me cause I feel better and more rested to deal with my days with the boys.

My issue these days is a traveling hubby and that's hard, cause I plan something and he comes out with a new schedule and then i have to put off stuff or change stuff to meet his schedule. Geez will I ever get a vacation?

Well, guess a girl can hope, hope and wish for some excitement of my own. Guess I'll have to find something more exciting to write about.

Hope is just that.

Signing off for today.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Work...Workshops....

Just amazing that I have sat in a workshop for 2 days straight and learned alot, but can't apply it all yet...need to get homework done now. Geez if it's not one thing it's another.
Ok, now back to my life! Kids, work etc. Hubby home this week too...lots to do!
Ok making this a short post, but will have more for you tomorrow!

Enjoy your night.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Gems in the rough......

Amazing day today, really saw who my teenager is important! Not Mom for sure, that smarts. While shopping for something for myself he didn't want to even choose anything for me, but he was shopping for his Dad's day gift.
Get that? Geez o peets.

I wonder what he really would choose for me if given a chance with his Dad?
I may just send him out tomorrow with his Dad!

Well, I got what I really wanted for Mom's Day. Something I would not usually choose, but it seemed to call my name for the the flowered Vera Wang necklace! Yes, I said Vera Wang. Beautiful purple flowered stone necklace. It was one I have not ever scene before.

But there was one that had me written all over it it was a gold, cooper, and diamond (silver) necklace.

Yes, that's right...on sale 60% off and a additional 15% off...so mind you it was alot less expensive then the cloths I bought. So, the boys got me a nice piece of jewlery this year...well after almost 15 years of marriage and rough teenage years I decided that this would be a perfect year to get something I really wanted and not something I needed.

Happy Mom's Day to all you Gems out there.

ox

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Flat Tire..........

Guess I was all outta air today!!!
Flat tire made me think of how time does not fly when sitting in the midst of merge from one freeway to another!
It's like life doesn't stop even know your stopped! I know it was just my car, but it made me think how a diagnosis of Autism stops so many folks, but when others know nothing about what a parent goes through it's hard to get it. Even if you are a good freind. Video's on the internent now are easy to pull up and show your friends what it's like.
Those are true moments of changing an attitude in people who thought they knew your real life.
As I pondered my life with Autism, in the review mirror I saw a lights, wow the tow truck is hear! Well, think about this if you see a child having a behavioral issue at the store ask if you can help and not say geez control your kid. You must be a bad parent...now this has happened to me and a guy did ask to help....what did i do made him go away. Interesting enough he walked back into our house a few years later as a fix it man. Fix it...he wanted to help me with my kid and I said no....it was like he was a guardian angle...just like the tow truck driver today!
Yes, I just said that...he knew I was freaked by just where I was sitting between 2 fast freeways and was like get me the heck out of here...feels like the diagnosis of autism as well.
Nope not kiddin here.....I didn't ask for it, but now I'm living with it and doing pretty good, advocating for what i believe the best for my boys.
Time will tell how there life will be, but I hope that more folks get what Autism is and help these kids figure out there lives and help the families with little kids through a tough time in public if they need it.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Monday before an IEP....ughhh

Feeling icky about this IEP.
He's doing ok in school, but having some issues with his friends and this usually happens at the beginning of the school year. Now is spring too.

Geez being a teenager is tough enough, but all these changes in his classes and him going to high school class has got me worried. He is really growing up, but acts like he's 8 sometimes. Autism Sucks some days and I really don't get how to discipline a teenager, with the exception of taking everything with a screen away from him!

I just want peace in my home again again and at school too. Is that to much to ask for.

Wish me luck.....